HEAVENLY BLISS

When i was little , i looked forward to my elder brother (himself a kid then ) for everything.  I looked forward to him for toys , to make me play with him , to share his video game with me , to accompany me to school everyday , basically to do everything possible , and to take care of me always and always.  And some days he did everything. But somedays he did not , and while we were  growing up , these other some days became more and more. And i felt a strange aloofness , he has his separate friends now , separate gaming sessions , i was not a part of that.  I felt , " he abandoned me " !!  I moved on.   Trying this time to find my comfort and solace in my friends from school or college.  We shared an eternal bond , we mentally vowed to be for each other forever even if we get separated. To be at a calls distance. It was perfect.  School ended then college ended.  No one was reachable.  Everyone was busy . Not that i wanted to reac...

 Someone's coming into your life is exciting , it's fascinating , full of life and hope . Pleasure like none other.  Not a single thing to not like about . It's simply love. In all its form. In all its depth . Eventually ,  Two possibilities arises;  One , that shimmer will faint with each passing day , Judgements will cloud the natural appreciations , Would feel something is stuck , feel like getting out of it every single moment . And then one day , it becomes too much , Too much that one of them decides to leave.  "Hey ,  i think it's better to part ways , nothing really is growing "!!   And that's when the other actually FEELS the dictionary definition of utter PAIN !  Not deciphering as to what went wrong , when did it happen , how do we correct it . But it doesn't require correcting. What it requires is understanding . Not of that person , but understanding of yourself. Which comes late, after all that pain have been endured by us in that al...

  Sometimes i wish to write something that's never been written before; Sometimes i wish to think that has never before pondered upon ; Sometimes i wish to see life from an entirely new perspective ; Sometimes i wish to feel sadness too as attractive. Sometimes i long for a day that never really ends ; Sometimes i wish to be myself and not societal trends. Sometimes i wish my heart calculates and my mind feels.  Sometimes i wish my body gets numb and my soul chills.  Sometimes i wish i move on in an instant ; Sometimes i wish there is some constant . I want to be this , and i want to be that.  Today i m me , tomorrow someone else.. This is precisely what I am , This is precisely what you are . Formidable enough to never be known ; Easiest gamble to put your money on .