The HOWs , WHATs and WHYs!!

Thinking about this an year long journey i undertook , when I look back to see and assess what's in there , 

How did it change me , How did i manage to change it, 

Some of the enthralling experiences, some of the not so ones,

The less of the ups, the more of the downs , or the other way round may be , 

The beliefs I had , the convictions I now have,

How strong hold my past has over me,

How closer am I to this moment ,

How intitutvely derived I am of what's coming forth.

And after these "How's ? 

There is this "What " . 

What did i want at the end, 

What were my aspirations for this year that's past now , 

What were the choices i had , and did i make those decisions what I thought I would.

And these "whys' ". 

Why was this even important to compare with what was and what's now ,

Why couldn't it be just a part of the wholesome me which is never ending and ever improving

Straddling in between but getting back always.

Why is this race , and against whom , when what was there then is " Me " and when what is here now is also " Me " . !

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